May 20, 2014

Dear Wil,

image from a rule, we parents think we do so much to shape our children. We neglect to acknowledge what you do to shape us. I had never known a love as deep as that I had for you, that day you were born. (I actually called my mom and apologized. I told her I had no idea she had felt that way about me as her child, and if I had known, I would not have done half the shit I did to her while I was growing up.)

Yet even though I loved you more than I had ever loved before, there was a greater love inside me still untapped. It was years later, and it was you who taught me, when I learned the true meaning of a parent's love for a child, of that divine love they speak about in religion, but seldom achieve: unconditional love.

It wasn't until I stopped trying to shape you into something I understood to be more socially acceptable and allowed myself to love you, exactly as you are, that I understood unconditional love. Since then my heart has burst open in, as has my ability to love others and make change in this world so it's easier for all of us to love others. And since then, our family has been healing from the years of hurt that preceded this simple yet powerful epiphany. Baby, I am forever grateful for your patience over those years of your young life, and for your openness to heal, with us, as a family.

You have given me the single most powerful and precious gift of my life.

Thank you baby! I love you.

Catherine Hyde